Catch Up Time!

Okay, so I told myself that I would write every day as much as possible.  No it's not a new year resolution.  It seems I don't make new year resolutions anymore.  I haven't for almost a decade now.  I realized that making these resolutions may seem to be what I and everyone should and would be doing.  Well, it's not for me.  I tend to take it way too seriously and then if I don't make any progress in the right direction I feel horrible about myself.  I literally feel like a loser and I hate that feeling. It can be discouraging too. New Year resolutions are no more than a set up for disappointment for me.  I put too much pressure on myself and the resolution carries too much weight all by itself.  Sometimes, it may even be unrealistic. Instead, I've decided to set goals for myself.  Both long and short term goals.  Goals can be more flexible and they change along the way and I feel okay about that.  As life goes on and it does, experiences and circumstances sometimes lead to changes in my life, myself, and my goals. 

I haven't set very many goals yet.  At the start of the new year I had some ideas of what I would like to accomplish but I really didn't have anything concrete.  I feel like I can take a little more time figuring out what my priorities are or what they really should be.

I've already been slacking on our blog.  I think my last post was on the 2nd day of January.  I won't say that I'm a loser.  That would be negative talk and I'm trying really hard to be more positive about myself.  I'm not a loser.  In reality, I just didn't make time to write and I was doing other things.  Honestly, I don't even remember what I was doing or how I used my time.  Time management?  Yeah, I think that goes on my priority list-How to use my time more wisely.

For example, I lost some time today when Isaac took my keys with him to work and my boys and I couldn't get in our apartment.  We dropped Isaac off this morning at 11:30ish and didn't get the keys back till 3:30pm.  I did have things to do and didn't get it done.  I wanted to feel disappointed but again I refrained from thinking negative about myself because it happened and it wasn't so bad.  We went to McDonalds to eat and the boys got to play in the play area.  They were soooo happy and excited to get a kids ice cream cone for FREE.  Yup, Free!  It was worth all the fun and excitement they felt.  I also felt good about not being in our apartment.  I needed to get out!

So I'll keep thinking of my goals.  One thing for sure...I want to be more positive about myself and give myself a break.  Life is too short to be upset about not being soooo perfect.